2011-08-31
216, NS
Figured I'd begin writing again, and see where it takes me. Just want to get some of the things crawling around in my head out and on paper. I figure, since I'm not performing with the circle this season, I need to do some other Work to support from a distance. Mulling a few things, including some musical arranging/writing. We'll see. Lots of inertia to overcome, and I've never been good at addressing it. OK, I admit it: I'm just lazy.
Tough getting up this morning - slept an extra hour - but oddly, it didn't affect when we left the house. I need to review my morning routine to see what I didn't do this morning, and see what I avoided doing this morning, and whether it is something that's actually necessary. It would be be interesting to see if I can repurpose that 5:15 - 6:15 hour for some sort of exercise. Lord knows I need it - changing my eating habits are helping, but to really get to where I want, I'm going to need more physical activity.
Speaking of exercise: week six of naturally slim, gained a pound. I'm still down 16 from where I started (23 from the original weigh-in, but that was fully clothed so I'm not really counting it). I figured I'd put on some weight - the weekend had some hurricane eating going on, so I was eating out boredom, rather than being hungry. Regardless, lost a little more girth; things are fitting better, and I'm running out of holes on some of my belts. Success is measured in new belts purchased...
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So, I'm in a wierd place, and feel a little stuck. I can see that I'm not doing the things I need to do, whether it be exercise, practice (musical or poker), work on the house, etc. I can see it, but there's some aspect of my nature I have to overcome to not just land myself in a chair after work. Just not sure what to do here, besides just suck it up and do *something*.
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One of the interesting things about the Naturally Slim program is its use of intentional/conscious eating. It isn't called this explicitly in the program, but essentially, that's what we're doing: chewing slowly, not just to slow the pace of eating and allowing your body's fullness trigger to kick in, but also to recognise that you're tasting something; eating when you're actually hungry, not just because it's time; the difference between being hungry and being dehydrated in the morning; social and biological drivers for chronic overeating.
Some very interesting moments during the program where I've found myself automatically reaching for something (a cookie after a performance) or thinking about eating because I'm bored. More practical work about the present moment than I've done in a while.
